Sunday, November 15, 2015

let me bitch

Ok, Social Media, OKAY!!!

I already have enough complaints about social media, like how we should never know as much info about our ex-boyfriend's sister's boyfriend's brother.... like that he was good friends with with a guy I had a class with.... or that all the people I went high school and college with are mostly married and are birthing babies left and right!

I mean God said to go forth and multiply, but I feel like social media puts multiplication on huge display, and every single picture, from the pee stick... to the belly pics.... to the baby shower... to the birth.... to the monthly pics... GEEZE EFFING LOUISE.

I know as much information about my high school friends' children as I do my own nieces and nephews. That seems bizarre to me.

Not to mention, that at one point in history, Facebook was strictly for college kids, and even though I don't fit that category any longer.... WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED?!

I mean before I knew it, my Mom, my Grandmothers, MY DAD... were all on Facebook(and mind you, this all happened while I was still in college). I was mortified and also felt like my privacy was being invaded. I wanted my own thing with people my age. I wanted to live a free social media life without having to put on a facade in order not to upset family members. Those days were long gone... and conversations were arising revolving around Facebook "Hey did you see on Facebook?" "I posted a pic on Facebook" "Did you see that argument on Facebook" "The Christmas event is on Facebook"  UGH.
And I even remember receiving a specific Facebook message from my mother stating that something I had posted was offensive.

Thank God they came up with options to BLOCK people, because I definitely did, and my mother was first on my list.

So I did regain some privacy, but damn then everyone and their sister was getting engaged... those were some sad social media years(2010-2013). Lots of crying and feeling like a failure.

But then I got over it, and smiled through most of the wedding pictures... cried through some.

BUT THEN THE BABIES CAME. And I couldn't handle it.

All these feelings of want, and not getting what you want and watching assholes get what they want... and my biological clock seemed as big as Big Ben.

I HAD TO GET OFF FB STAT. And I did, and it has been over a year and it's been the best decision I've made for my mental health.

I will say that FB is not all bad. I know that people have raised lots of support have found lost family members, and even lost animals. But it's just not my cup of tea.

I do, however, have an instagram, which I love.
Information, but not too much.
And if someone is posting 10 pics and hour, you just unfollow. So simple.

I will say some people I follow take A LOT of pics of their kids, and it's a little exhausting.... like I just saw your kid 7 hours ago on here doing the exact same thing... what has changed?

But in all fairness, I'm not a parent, and I don't know what loving my own child is like. I'm sure I would want to capture all the sweet moments because kids grow so fast.... so expect me to post 20 pics a day when I have kids

I did log onto FB maybe a month ago to look at a friend's life situation, because for the most part, her life is up to date on the FB, so I checked in and it was nice and I thought ok this isn't so bad, but then I scrolled through my feed seeing all these strange things that I wouldn't have known without fb... like a friend from college had his 1st baby, new engagements, new relationships, and I realized and decided that life is better with a little mystery, and deactivated my account once more.