last month of my 26th year

In about a month, I will be turning 27. 27?!?!!!! 

What on earth, where and what is time? It is fleeting fast and slipping through my hands.
My goodness.
I am thankful though, I am thankful because 26... is one for the shit books for sure.

26, you were hard on my heart, and I felt as if I was going through some horrendous break up on top of losing my mind. You taught me several things with that pain though, or at least the Holy Spirit did, but still, you hurt, a whole heck of a lot.

I am not yet done with 26 yet though... and I have to say that I have been experiencing some redemption this week. Gosh this past week has been so great.


Guys!!(if there are really any of you out there) I present to you... GOOD NEWS. I'm sure past posts have caused you worry of deep depression & potential suicide, but really, I'm fine. I'm coming out of the black hole.

This past week has been so good.
My health insurance started up this month(after 10 months of not having any)... THANK GOD... and I got to see a Dr. for my PCOS... oh I don't think I've mentioned that I have been dealing with PCOS for about 7 years. The side effects are truly monsters, but you take it day by day and try not to get bent out of shape.

I started taking some medicine for this condition, and along with exercise... and in only week and a half, I have been feeling a TON better... oh and I started going to a gym about a week and a half ago and am trying to do cardio 3 times a week, in fact, I'm about to go in the next 30 minutes.

I wouldn't say that I love gyms, but I do love that I only pay $10 monthly and I am really enjoying how good I have been feeling. AKA I have been operating like a normal human.

THEN, I have been getting my face blessed off.

I haven't been to church in........ um maybe almost 3 months.

I found a great church when I moved back to Dothan, and really love their principal beliefs, teachings, etc., but unfortunately I just wasn't able to find a community that I wanted within the church.
I felt as though I needed to be married or have a boyfriend in order to be successful with connecting to some people... and sometimes that's just how it works out.
I would just like to let all married people know once more.... SINGLE PEOPLE WANT TO HANGOUT WITH YOU.
There are definitely no personal offenses towards this church.... sometimes, what you're looking for might not exist within a particular place, even if the rest is wonderful.

I wonder if I'll ever find friends like the ones I've made through Campus Church at Auburn. They are truly my heart and I love each of those humans. But I also believe that there are greater things ahead and just know there are more great friends to be made.


I did finally make it to a different church last Sunday, which was great, and I think I will definitely go back.

BUT back to the blessings. For years, I have been praying a blessings prayer model used in different churches and one of the lines in the prayer states "I believe in jobs and better jobs, raises and promotions, debts paid off, and checks in the mail"... checks in the mail was my favorite line

This week, I have received 2 checks in the mail, and one email offering a small job for some extra cash flow... and even though these checks were small, the meaning behind them is so great.
In my opinion, I have not been an upstanding citizen for the past however many months, but still, the Lord blesses me.

I'll be honest with you and say that I don't even remember the last time I have even tithed.
God surpasses my expectations each time, he inspires me to better my heart with His unfailing love.

The past few months of my 26th year has really been quite refreshing, I hope for continual surprises this month.

COMING SOON..... Trip to the PNW!